I have so much going on inside of me right now. Fear of writing and not writing being the most nagging thoughts. So with that, I decided I would at the very least write something on my blog. It's safe here, not many know about it and I can just get my fingers moving without the pressure of it being brilliant or even important.
Have a few books inside me, and I know I need to take the steps of courage and just put them together, start writing them.
Was thinking on this the other night. Doubt and condemnation start tossing shit at me, and I take the bait. I think " what the heck do I have to say that is any different than anyone else saying the same things I want to say, or have to say, or think to say..". Then the thought of Harlequin Romances comes to mind. Millions of books written as romance novels, all with the basic same plot line....over..and over...and over. Yet they sell. People continue to buy them and read them even though they can guess each step along the way what is going to happen. Same story, different authors and characters.
And yes, this comforted me. No, not gonna write a romance novel, I do not have fiction in me to write, I don't read it, so I really have no idea how to write it. But it comforted me in the fact that even though it's the same story, different writers have a unique way of expressing that same story. Each reader hears the story how they can because of their own stories. Each person sees and hears a very specific and individual way because we are all so different, in all our similarities. We all have a unique beautiful, only us, way of expressing our knowledge and experiences.
So, I will take my courage and make some steps towards getting the books out of me and onto this computer, with the hopes a book will appear and maybe, just maybe, someone will want to buy and read. If not, at least I took what is on my heart and put it out there. And for that, I will be very proud of myself for.
