Grateful

Amazing how...one minute you are scared, frustrated or discouraged and the next you are OVER the moon! So happy, so blessed and thankful!
Then, give it an hour or so, you can so easily be back to being scared.

GRAB HOLD OF YOUR MIND LEANNE!!!

We ( I'll be saying "we" a lot cuz Sam and I are in this thing of life together and it's where "we" are at...just to be clear, it's not a split personality or this "thing" I have about calling myself "we" )
right...
We, have been learning so much about the power of the spirit of gratitude, the strength there is in being positive and how important it is to focus on what is good.
It breeds this amazing fertile soul haha...oops, I meant to write soil, but soul it is! It creates and breeds this fertile soul in which amazing, wonderful, beautiful, strength grows from.
It also draws more wonderment, beauty and gratefulness to you!
We have been practicing keeping on minds set on that which is good ( very biblical and a foundational truth) And wow...can we see a difference in our lives!
The freedom and rest we find in having joyful hearts. That is peace right there.

So what I was talking about before.
We watched a Ted talks this morning, sooo good! Hmmm...I'll post it here, so I can watch it again and my huge viewing audience can too! hahaha
Anyways, it talks of how "Happy" needs to be the beginning state...not the destination...cuz...
you'll never get there! The finish line keeps moving.
I'll be happy when.....
and when that when comes...you move the goal post! So how long are you actually happy with your accomplishment? Millisecond? Well, maybe longer...but not much. Cuz what I do....is I set a new goal right away!
Well that was nice, and yeah me....but ya, I can do better, reach higher, accomplish more...be thinner. ;op

So....here's a thought! Start with Happy! Work in Happy. Be in happy, and live life Happy. Set your mind, your heart, your spirit and your being on that state. Then...accomplishments, goals, dreams, successes, gifts, and all that other "stuff" Will be the frosting on that fabulous cake life you've been living all along already!

Your happy won't be dependent on it....your joy will not be wavered..... your peace will remain secure and you can live relatively stress free! Not having to perform in order to live a full wonderful happy life!!

How great is that a concept?

I like frosting...I love cake. I'll take em both.....but for now....I'm uber happy enjoying my cake...My Happy Cake!

ahahahahaha
This post makes me smile! =D

right...next day the girl gets the link on here!! sheesh!

 http://www.ted.com/talks/lang/en/shawn_achor_the_happy_secret_to_better_work.html

Leap it

What a great way to start a day! Especially a day we only get once every 4 years.

I want to make this my life  motto, to live this full on. So often I let questions and concerns, doubts and fears get in the way of what I really want.....then I think, if it can be taken out with those...is it really what I want?

I find it so much easier to help others make things happen, to cheer them on, to help organize their lives while mine continues to be tossed around with each new bright and shiny idea that grabs my crow like attention. Oooooo sparkly....

I've been doing more soul searching, more information gathering and more honest to goodness reality checks with myself. I'm learning tons, but is it getting me closer to what my "dream" is? Am I more clear on where I'm going, why I'm going and how am I going to get there? Not really. But what I am doing, is stepping out and trying what there is that comes my way in opportunity and ideas, more than just writing them down and then filing them away.

That's why this blog is happening. I figured, if writing is an idea, then why not start? I'm planning on developing this into a video blog too. Cuz I thought maybe I'd like to do some public speaking.....so I can practice on me with a camera and see how it goes!
Also, opened a twitter message from escape artist and they offered a free subscription for travel writers. So, what the heck, nothing ventured nothing gained and I SO want to travel, so I'll start with looking at where I want to go!

So not only is this for learning sake...this blog, it's also for my own personal accountability. To put things in writing to help me make progress and keep moving forward.

I feel somewhat safe here, yet also exposed.....cuz it's going out "there"...into cyber space....for someone to maybe find. Ah well....who's looking. Just me and my little corner of the webworld....all to myself. Shhh...don't tell anyone!

This is me

A little about moi.

I learned recently I'm a rebel AND have prestige....so combined I'm considered a trendsetter. What's not to like about that analysis?
This is from Fascinate the book. I haven't read it, but did an online little survey of myself. I think it's pretty accurate and I love it,  so I'm gonna go with it.
The colors however aren't my favorite. Purple and Yellow. Reminds me of my old school colors. Which they aren't, but they remind me of it...no comment.

I have been known to stand backwards or sideways in a bank line, it always makes me feel like a cow. Not like a big fat lard a** but literally like a cow, in a stall, facing the same way, waiting to be milked. But it's not isolated to bank line ups.
I've had trouble walking down a street where it seems everyone is heading in the same direction. Does anyone else relate to this at all? I want to skip or wander back and forth or stop and go or do SOMETHING to set me a part. To stop feeling like....a cow. I think it's the rebel in me...wonder if I could start a trend with wander walking....

Something else, is I dislike the word "Special" and not because it has a " needs" attachment to it. But because, everyone is "special". So in essence it cancels out the "special". Sang a song in Grade 4 in church. " I'm something special, I'm the only one of my kind, God gave me a body and a bright healthy mind. He has a special purpose that He wanted me to find, so He made me something Special, I'm the only one of my kind".
I disliked that song....and how odd really, as I write it and the tune goes through my head singing the words.....I realize what a great truth to teach kids!
Hmmmm...maybe I should start embracing that word more....

I digress, my point is in a different direction. I like the word " unique". I like being "unique" or "different". I don't want to settle for the status quo. I want and always have wanted to .....drum roll...Monumental Moment here.....

Live a Life Less Ordinary.

Which in some ironic way...is pretty much what I lived for the past 25 years. And absolutely LOVED it!

But alas, my time has come to put ordinary aside...and embrace my true nature, my cosmic Heavenly divine calling...

And be a Rebel! Take that Trendsetting person out and show her a world she's only dreamed of!!!

Watch out, ready or not, here I come! ( I'll be the one wandering back and forth, too and fro down the road of life, no I'm not lost....and I'm certainly NOT a cow)

Why

This is where I will compile my list of "why"s. Why I want what I want, why I do what I do and why I care about what I care about...and whatever any other why's come to me in the process.


- To see my husband become stark raving successful...not mad ( unless I get too involved, cuz I could do that to anyone)
- To do, see, be, help, give, experience, travel, help, serve, buy, enjoy, bless....anyone really, but first my family.
- To see it actually happen....whatever "it" is. I know...does not make sense, but I'm hoping one day it will. "it" will.....I know it.
- To "show" "them". Ya, not a great "why" but I'm not here to be proper...I'm here to be honest.

That's it for now. The "why"s I've come up with so far.

Now if only I could figure out the "what". Then.....we're getting somewhere!

Excellent!

A place I can ramble without having to worry who reads it and I can get use to getting my thoughts down on the computer rather than the ka-gillion notebooks, journals, pads of paper and scraps I find to jot on!

I'm here . At that dot.
I want to get ------------------------------------> there, add much more to the arrows distance, I don't have room, so use your imagination.
I know from here . to ---------------------------------------> there, it is going to take some steps....and I'm totally ok with that...in fact I'm quite good with that, cuz I'm not ready for ---------------------------------------> there yet.

Do I know where ----------------------------------------> there is? that's very very important!! Eep. Where is ---------------------------------> cuz unless I know....I ain't gonna get ---------------------------------->there. ( I think my arrows are getting shorter...due to my attention span)

Ok, what I know is:
- I don't want to be a career Insurance Broker ( yes, I'm licensed and I'll keep it, but it's not my calling)
- that middle class know what they " don't" want but not always what they "do" want. ( argh, middle class thinker aboard)
- I do know I want to be successful! ( can I be a successful " I don't know what I wanna be" ? guess so, cuz so  far I'm succeeding in it!
- I do know I've got dreams! ( big small, here there, flighty and firm I gottem!)
- I do know I want to be financially FREE! ( yes, I can sing " Money money money" with the best of them!)
- I want to travel ( that is self explanatory....well it is if you're a traveler, if not, use your imagination)
- I want to have fun ( there is fun to be had and dang it....I'm gonna find it!)
- I want to be authentically ME. ( I'm pretty cool, I have really great blonde hair, I laugh at myself and others...what? that's not a good thing? pish. I have a temper. I am rebellious, oddly enough, this was kind of news to me! Not to my teachers, parents, employers, husband or the people who try to make you line..I'm a line rebel.
-I want to share my life. I've got stuff, to share. Stuff to share. Stuff I'll share, stuff and share, Stuff. It's interesting to me.....and maybe a handful of others who can relate to having....stuff.

And I have a dog.
And a husband, not in that order. And kids...they are all gone now..no not tragically, they moved out. Not tragic aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat all!
Ok, so it was at the beginning outward movement, but now? Ya, it's great when they "visit".

So there I go. Shared pretty well nothing, and everything I could think of without rambling on for countless hours.

And it's on in written form. For no-one to judge but me...cuz it seems this particular blog lost all of the 4 followers I had a year ago! Go figure?

Ok, so I need to work on how to end....I'm kinda drawing a blank.

Aaaaannnnndddd......Scene

It's all I had.