Reality?

 Why do they say " back to reality" when you get home from vacation? Why does that have to be a fantasy? I'm curious...

does "reality"  just mean blah de blah and back to the grind and mundane that is life?

Cuz who wants to sign up for that?? 

No wonder so many people dread going home after their little escape from their reality! No wonder they want to live in their fantasy land.
I would too! In fact...I DO. I have zero desire for mundane, for boring, for status quo, for getting by and merely surviving!!

Is that what we were created for? Is that the meaning of life? So not appealing on any level!!!!

YUCK

I want a life less ordinary. I want to travel as part of my "reality" and make fantasy something of unicorns and pots of gold at the end of rainbows.

I'm all for working hard, if it's at something you LOVE and something that INSPIRES, that uses you GIFTINGS, TALENTS, ABILITIES, EXPERIENCES for GOOD.....no for GREAT!!!
Why do people think you're a dreamer if this is what you want?
Some people have it ALL!!!! I want it ALL TOO!

Thanks, but no thanks, I'll pass on the same old same old that the majority of people have bought into. I'm going for the AMAZING!!!

Gonna figure out how to make the travel, lifestyles of the rich and famous a part of

 MY reality!!!

Life's too short, you hear it all the time....why waste it on life draining? Fill it with Life GIVING!!!

Ahhhhhhh

Ok, got a bubble in my heart!! SOOOOOO EXCITING!!!

Why not!!!???? RIGHT?!

Disclaimer

Just need to say....
I write how I talk, I talk how I write and I don't edit much at all.

I try to think before I talk, but I can't say I think much before I write. It just comes out. The sentence structure isn't the greatest, but the heart of my hearts message is there and really,at this point it's all I care about...is getting my thoughts out.
And I'm having fun with it.

And if it ain't fun, well, then what's the point.

And fyi too....I have journals upon journals filled with this stuff too.

'Cept, maybe scarier.

wink

Tigers and Lions and Bears...ya right

YEAH ME!!

I faced a lion this morning....it was actually me. Most of the lions in my life are actually all made up in my head and look a lot like fear and well.....me.

I know this is not isolated to me, I know others have the same challenges of getting in their own way. And the answers are typically all the same.
Just face your fears. Now...
I'm not saying step in front of a semi. Or leap off the top of your house...and really, if I need to tell you not to do those...then you've got bigger problems than facing a few fears! SEEK HELP!

I digress...hahahaha...as usual.

Basically a couple different things helped me face this particular "lion". One was advice from Anthony Robbins. Stand, Breath and Think as if you can't fail. That what you want is already yours. When you are confident, you stand, breath and think and Speak differently. So that's what I did. I stood tall, I breathed smoothly and thought successfully and I spoke with confidence. I had what I wanted to say spelled out and well...
I faced my lion!!

A phone call.

Ah.....but I'm not the only one!! I know LOTS of people who hate making calls, who are scared to pick up the phone, who are immediately intimidated to dial the numbers and they freeze, put it off, avoid at all costs, make excuses, and basically hide.
And I do too. Too many times to count.

I'd say it's ridiculous....and it probably is. And I can say it's all in my head, which again it is. I can say it's a waste of energy and yes...it's that too.

But I need to be validated sometimes in my fears, to know that others face them too, even if they seem silly. What fears aren't?
Really....again, not the semi facing "I can stare down the grill of that mac truck" kind of fear....that my friends is STUPID and carries signs of mental disturbances. SEEK HELP.

I'm thankful for all the people who have spoken, wrote and shared in various ways how they have faced their fears, how they have overcome, one little fear at a time, I so appreciate the fact they have admitted and been authentic about them, cuz....well, it's empowered me, made me feel I'm in good company  and given me the extra little push and support I needed in knowing I'm not alone and they survived...so can I.

Well...
One lion down.

There's still a freakin' den full waiting. But...I survived to face again! I can do this! I am Woman, hear me Roar!

bwahahahaha
 

Thoughts on a rainy Monday

Oh so happy! Got my new alligners! Aaaannnndddd......less speed bumps! Whoop!! Only 6 this time, 7 less than last...so happy.
Back on track to straighter teeth. Wonder if I'll miss my fang. Been told it's sexy. Funny, whenever I'm told something in particular I do is sexy or could be sexy, I avoid it.
It is not something I aspire to. Or if I do....I'd rather it be considered something else. I've never been a huge fan of the word or what is suggests.

Females are ridiculous when it comes to how they project themselves. Not alllll women....but stupid ones. Yup, that's what I think. I think it's stupid. All boobs and no depth? Show off you bootie and not your spirit, soul, your heart...?
Makes me crazy. But I wonder...do they know any better?
Did their mama's tell them if that's all they put out there, that's all they'll get back? I don't think parents have enough conversations with their kids when it comes to relationships and who they are.
I tried to be really open with our kids. I did my best to talk about things they may have rather avoided...but then again, they didn't leave.
( maybe cuz I also taught them to respect their parents and not walk away when they are being talked to! haha)
But anyway, I talked about how to relate, how to be careful, how to treat each other, what to expect and what to avoid. I also asked a lot of questions....
What my sons thought of girls who showed little modesty? What about magazines by the check out? What they thought of sex before marriage? What they were wanting in a spouse? What was most important? Raising kids, who would? Homeschooling....adoption....careers...money...Christianity....religion...
We talked. And ya know...I personally think they all turned out amazing.

And...I still ask. I told them I would.

Asking if they are honoring their girlfriends by treating them with respect and not taking advantage of them. Being careful to care.
Are they being true to who they are and what they believe? Are they walking in integrity?

My kids are far from perfect, in fact, I have to remind myself to not be so hard on them at times. But, they are amazing people.
And I'm so thankful for all the conversations we had, all the challenges we brought them to walk the walk they said they believed in. To make their yes be yes and their no be no. To live above the common sense of this world and seek counsel from wise people.

Hmm..not sure if this is where I thought it would go...but I guess.....it's not surprising. My heart isn't ever far from thinking of my kids.
They are part of my heartbeat and they are knit into my very being.
My love for them that is...they are their own Free Will Agents, and so far, they have spread their wings and have made a beautiful impact on the world around them!

Wow....how humbled and amazed and blessed I am that they all call me Mom.

Write now

Don't always "feel" like writing, but I'm just gonna "should" all over myself and do it....cuz,well, I should.

Had a friend stay the night with two of her girls. It was very low key compared to the polar opposite that is her home. Her's is, to be somewhat understated...busy. Mine....is not.

Anyway, it was great having her here even if it was short, twas sweet. I ventured out and told her I wanted to be a writer and speaker but omitted the rich and famous part....figured the writer/speaker was out there enough.
Then she asked a question that stumped me, which is actually really funny AND ironic. " What do you want to write?"
Hm. Ah. Uh.....ya, I don't know. Then I proceed to just sit and feel dumb.

Told Sammy the manly man, later and as always, being less literal than myself, he was able to explain in simple ( this time) detail on what exactly she was asking. And here I thought it was a story line. No...alas, the answer could have been as simple as " I want to write something that makes people cry".
Oooohhhhhhh.....I seeeee...

Riiiight.
That's super, I can answer that question! What I want to write! I know that answer. I want to write something that makes people laugh and think. Something that inspires and encourages. I wanna write stuff that makes people feel understood and sane. I have at numerous times in my life felt none of those and all of those.
Sane is a good thing. And I know that stems from feeling understood. I want "them" to know, they are understood at  the very least, by me!
So, what it comes down to, I want to share myself. I have very little problem sharing myself. I've always been kind of an open book, not a lot left to the imagination, other than " ya gotta wonder what's going on in her head?....oh wait....there it is!"
So, if I can spare someone from feeling insane, misunderstood, alone, helpless, lonely, sad, desperate, unloved...oh my this list could go on for awhile.
But all to say, if anything in my wee life can touch anyone for the positive...well then,  I'm more than happy to bare my soul, heart mind and body...ok, not body, I am quite modest.

Feelin' pretty good about this! I can write and right now....even better? I can answer someone who asks that darn question " what".

Phew

Have a coaching appointment this morning with some guy from Anthony Robbins  coaching....people, thingy.
Signed up and now I'm wondering what the heck for?
I don't know what I want or need. Think it'll help? No clue....don't particularly want to waste this guys time, but at the same time I kinda wanna know what it's all about.
Well...
guess I'll find out won't I?

Coaches or mentors are so important to move forward in your career...but you kind of need to know what direction you 'want' to head in right?

Being rich, famous and notarized is probably not enough? Dang

I'm trying to embrace the whole insurance broker thing...well, half a**ed I'd say. But if I don't that leaves me clueless as to what to do or where to go.
So, I'm here, I'll do what I can and see where it leads.

Should really kinda get excited about it, cuz why not right? Why just feel blargy blarg about it. Put it on, wear it and have fun!
hahahaha
Insurance and fun!! There ya go! Recipe for a really good time? Add insurance!
Let me tell you, nothing gets a party started with some great insurance quiz! Or better yet, do a whole presentation on UL's vs Whole life! Bring on the tequila!
Actually, everyone would be calling for it! hahahaha

Any who..
I'll find the "fun" and make the most of it!

Ok, now....gonna go get ready for my coaching appointment...by reading the questionnaire I filled out and can't remember how I answered!

I Will Praise You in This Storm

So, as per my night life, I was awake again last night....big shock and amazement. But then again, big deal, at least I wake up feeling ok and alert. If it was a case of feeling dopey and sleepy, I'd probably call the doc and get something stiff and strong to knock me out.

Anyway...got up, after spending some time praying and trying to stay focused....which lately hasn't been working at the best of times!
Anyways....again!

I got up to spend some purposeful prayer time with God and my bible...which I haven't actually taken out and read in quite some time. Thought and prayed a moment, then felt led to Job. I've never quite understood the story of Job...well, I get the whole "life shot to hell" point, but not how his friends were actually wrong in their advice and support. I had skim read it before and figured all they had to say was pretty right on. I think cuz that's what I would have said what I would have suggested and encouraged my friend Job to do.
Guess I'd be told to take a hike and shut up too then.
I'm not into explaining it all, or what or how they were wrong and yadda yadda...what my point is, is the word I got from God last night for ME.
Yep, Got me a word directly from God!! How cool is that? Long story short. Prayed Sunday along with Bill Johnson and prayed again last night for a specific word.
He answered and He gave.

Ya ready?

" I'm preparing you LeAnne ( He always spells my name right!) Hold tight to me"
So I had the audacity to ask:
" Good or bad, riches or failure?"
He said:
" Does it matter? Hold tight to Me"

Nope, it doesn't matter.
Cuz either way...I'm safe. I'm good.

I've sang a song so many times when things turn to sh** and I am beside myself with concern....and usually bawling my eyes out.

" I will praise you in this storm, cuz you are who you are...no matter where I am, and every tear I cry, you hold in your hand and though my heart is torn.....I will praise you in this storm"

And

"Though the fig tree may not blossom and there be no fruit on the vine....yet will I rejoice in the Lord"

And

" God will make a way, where there seems to be no way...he works in ways, we cannot see, he will make a way for me"

These songs have brought me such amazing strength and comfort. And I know...if I can praise Him in storms or in crappy times.....along with the good and easy?
I'll be the stronger for it, I'll be safe and secure.
I'll have all I need. Safety in my Fathers arms. What more could a girl ask for? I'm so thankful, so blessed and I'll do as I'm told..to the best of my understanding and ability....
I'll hold tight to Him and not worry about all the "what if's".
He's totally got me covered....He's promised.

Pinned

Craziness!!
Ya know, I wanted to grow my pinterest following....and this has at the very least gotten me some attention! I'm loving the repinning and liking and all the comments, so cool!

here's the pin of interest!

http://pinterest.com/pin/257408934921877523/

so far 621 repins and 284 likes with 22 comments!

I'm wondering what the greatest numbers of repins anyone has had?!
Mine I'm sure. haha

By commenting , I even found who the photographer was! A good ol' Canadian girl from Calgary =D

"This was taken by Carol Lynn Frazer of Edmonton, AB, Canada. She is a creative artist and school teacher. Many people think this is photoshopped but she assured us it is not. The photo was taken at night using a flash. No other changes were made to the photo."
Thank you Ginny Marx for getting that info to me!

Ok, coffee time....had to share...oh right, and post that Ted talk on the previous blog entry!

Ah...it's either the blonde or the grey.....