Sam read to me this morning about genius's in their field and how they work their craft. Setting daily goals for themselves.
For instance, Stephen King writes 10 pages or approx 2000 words a day. Lukas told me this in December I think.

Does every passion or compulsion to do something motivate this kind of dedication? I think if we listened to ourselves, it very well could and would.

I want that kind of consistency. Probably at this point, it is something I will have to make a decision about, because obviously, up till now, I haven't had it.

Choices are so powerful. Sam and I were talking about connecting to our hearts, passions, hopes, dreams and gut the other day on this level. When we finally come to the place of absolutely "owning" our dream, I believe that is when we really start seeing and experiencing a shift.

At that moment, when we actually believe and acknowledge our desires, the atmosphere changes. Possibilities start presenting themselves, opportunities and creative ideas start flowing towards us. We start seeing all the "yes's" over the "no's". Sifting of thoughts and priorities happen and we start purging thoughts, behaviors and even physical "stuff" from our lives that don't fit in with what it is that we are dreaming and hoping for.

That happened with me, as soon as I chose to not "put it down". I started looking around my apartment and decided what would grow my belief and what was hindering it. I chose to get rid of things that held me where I was, and focused on those things that moved me forward. I dreamed on a whole new level of what I saw as my new reality. I even started shopping for clothing differently. I gave away bags of winter clothing and shoes. I was convinced and knew I wouldn't need them. On that note, we didn't leave till January, and some of those clothes could have come in handy from the end of Oct till we left, but I survived! haha

In looking back over the past year, and years before when we have made shifts in our beliefs and chose to listen to our hearts, I have seen this happen so profoundly. It's a curious, interesting thing that happens.

So as I sit here, writing, with the desire that I am a writer and author, I look within myself for that shift of owning it. Really, fully and to the very gut of who I am, owning it. It scares me, but I have learned that fear goes part and parcel in the stages of following your dreams and heart, so I can be comforted in that. In the fact that everything I want is going to take me doing something different, and different brings unknown and unknown brings discomfort and discomfort brings....familiar.

I am writing in circles it seems.

But this is what I need to say to myself, and if anyone else can benefit and find power in it, to move forward and grab onto your dreams and follow your heart, then that's awesome and I'm glad to share mine with yours. As messy and possibly hard to follow as it is.

I am a writer.
I am an author.
And I am in the process of owning it.