I have had an ongoing heated conversation with my body for pretty much my entire teen and adult life. Weight has been pretty much the core of this conversation.

I have found, in the last few years, major freedom in many of the beliefs and self hatred I held to, but I still have some lingering issues that have been like a plucking invisible eyebrows, you know they are there, but you can't quite get a grip on them.

I often ask a question or hold to a thought as I go to sleep, for my heart/spirit/subconscious mind to answer when I awake. Asking  questions at bedtime has been a huge resource for me in finding some hidden answers. Amazing how the mind takes over and clouds our hearts so often. My ongoing question has been "What needs to be transformed in my beliefs to find and experience complete freedom to be Slim Trim Health and Strong?". This mornings answer to my last few eyebrows was:

 " You cannot be a best selling author if you don't write a book".

 Ok, so that also answers my best selling author hope, but it was actually speaking to me about the question I asked last night.

Now, I actually do believe this is possible. And no, I don't mean through massive amounts of exercise. I believe that when we correct our beliefs, and thoughts and connect fully with our hearts, our hearts will direct us to "eat whatever we want", because technically, what we really want is to be slim, trim, healthy and strong. (one of my mantra's I have said for a couple years now ) 

In the past, I have been on so many diets, looking for food to control my weight and my self. How I felt about myself, whether I was "good or bad"....

Food

Food

Food

So much so , that I got to the point I didn't know what was good or bad. What was right or wrong. Google "diets" and "good food vs bad food" and you will end up feeling like there is nothing good to eat but celery. And that is only if it's farm raised with no chemicals, non gmo. Cared for with love, compassion and understanding it's entire growth process and in soil blessed by a Shaman. 

Release, relief , and gratitude this mornings thought, is a blessing to me. It frees me and reminds me, its good for me to make wise, thoughtful choices with my eating, connecting it not to will power or behavior management, but to my heart of hearts. And most of all, TRUST  myself.  It frees me to say no to the donut, because still in my mind, it equals fat gain and is "naughty". It frees me to be and do what is best for me. It's a loving step towards my goals of yes, Slim, Trim, Healthy and Strong.

This isn't the first time this "answer" has come to me, and it probably won't be the last. Often with the hidden, seemingly elusive beliefs that keep us in a holding pattern, it takes a few reminders for us to fully connect with them. It's not something to get frustrated with, that only brings a feeling of defeat. Just recognize you are on the right path, you are being reminded because we all need reminders and encouragement along the way to know we are really connected to the truth for us. 

Try this exercise at bedtime when you are wrestling with a problem and haven't been able to find an answer. Right as you get all comfy in bed, write out the question, ask it, then let it go. Enter into your alpha state thankful for the answer and the rest that comes from not having to figure it out.

 It may take a few nights of doing this, but the answer will come, your spirit is connected to the future in ways your head and mind cannot be.

So listen, it's speaking.