Are You Still Who I Remember You To Be?

When I take time to really connect to what makes my heart soar and what creates hope within me and edifies my being, it always come back to sharing hope, freedom, love and acceptance with others.

Recently I received a message from someone asking some pointed questions about my beliefs and if I still believed the way I did, 10, 15 years ago.
Am I still the same person they remember who shared their faith and beliefs?
Not in those words, but that is what it came down to.

Yes. And No.

Yes, I am the same person. I care, I love, I hope, I encourage, I share my life and thoughts, I listen well, I am kind. I am all these and more.
I would dare say, I'm better at them all!

And, well, No.

No, I don't believe the same as I did in many areas. I'm not the same in that respect.
I remember that person, I know her well. I see what she believed and understand why. But I have changed some of my beliefs, I have let go of some and embraced new ones. I don't use the same language and I don't go to the same resources. I believe I have expanded and grown. Not to say others who believe as I did haven't, this isn't about others beliefs, it's about Mine.

I am learning in my present life, to not compare.
Sure, somethings I think are ok to compare. If it causes you to grow and become more of who you really are. If the comparison is kind and loving to both with the intention of positive influence, then I don't actually think comparison is destructive.

The comparison I am talking about is Me vs You. Us vs Them.  Now vs Then. My beliefs vs Your beliefs. My priorities vs Your priorities. My love vs Your love.

I am here to Be. True to me, my thoughts, ideas, input, beliefs, hopes, dreams, intentions, actions....
Growth.

I feel for those who don't get where I am. Who struggle or are threatened by what I have let go of, or are fearful of what I do believe now. In so many ways, I understand, because for a long time, I felt the same.

I lived with fear, but also the absolute conviction I knew the truth and others were all deceived if they didn't believe the way I did. 

The main fear I have now, is ridicule and anger from those I care about if ever I was to share my heart and ideas. So, for the most part, I keep quiet, I walk away from conversations that isolate or assume agreement.  Because for me, it's not important to argue or defend myself.

I just want love, acceptance, respect and connection.

I am aware that my language has changed. I am also aware others are noticing. I am ok with that. And I am also ok with people asking.

My response is typically another question...."Why?".
Why is it important for you to know?

Ultimately, why is it important to know if someone is the same as they use to be?

I would guess, because people need security and familiar helps them feel safe.

I am not here to give security, but I am hoping people feel safe with me. Knowing I will never ridicule, write someone off, reject, argue or hurt someone based on their thoughts, ideas, beliefs or convictions.

My hope is others will give the same grace to me.

Intentions. Sometimes I Feel Like a Flake!

If I don't monitor my intentions, desires, wants and hopes on a regular basis, I forget them.
What the heck is that all about???

I mean, it's not like they change. I can experience regular "Ah Ha" moments every so often, when an old one rears it's beautiful, intriguing head.
Anyone else go through this??

I seriously feel like a flippin' Flake! How do I lose sight of something I sincerely want?

Is it timing?

I do get distracted. I also get short sighted.

What's the "new" thing in my visual path? What's that over there? Oh, this needs attention immediately!
These all go towards my attention going elsewhere and for whatever other reason, I forget to return to that which is on my heart.

Does it mean it doesn't really matter to me? Does it mean I don't Reeeally want it? Does it mean I won't experience and manifest it?

No. Nope, Nada. to all of the above.

It simply means I am human and my mind and brain have numerous things going on and I am still learning, growing and evolving in this beautiful thing called Life.

I choose to be kind to myself in these things, even if I DO feel like a flake. I give myself permission to continue to not always hit a home run.
I allow the ebb and flow. I embrace the seeming setbacks and choose to see the truth of who I am.

I am
Abundant
Whole
A Magnet for wonderful things
Hopeful
Loving, to myself first and others flow from there.

I may feel flaky or distracted and even forgetful, but those don't define me, unless I choose to let them!

Ok,
Now to write out some of those intentions and set my heart and mind on creating the world I want to experience!
With a touch of flaky tossed in for the fun of it!

Yes, I Do Believe I Have a Little Gypsy Blood in Me

“Someone who possesses a Gypsy Soul is a person always in need of change and/or adventure. A Gypsy Soul seeks the next best thing in any life situation. They can be very passionate and often inspired by different ideas, attitudes and experiences. Their sense of identity isn’t always sure of what they want out of life but they are determined to find it.”

Very rarely to I completely relate to a label.  I’m pretty much rebelled against them, I like to see and live outside boxes. But this description of a Gypsy Soul seems to have me written all over it. I  can relate to each word of it.

My soul’s expression is very consistent however much I desire or seek change. To share Hope, Love, Acceptance, Permission and Freedom with everyone I come in contact with, whether it’s in person, or online with social media. I want to experience it as much as I want to give these to others. I have been considering, on a regular basis, what my life message is, and this would very much sum it all up. It gives me life and joy to share these truths with others.

To add to the Gypsy experience, my main squeeze, aka Husband Sam,and I have on

2 different occasions, sold everything to seek a Life Less Ordinary,
to experiment with living outside the status quo of the culture and society we both grew up in.
And we continue on this somewhat nomadic lifestyle. All the while, studying, experiencing
and shifting our beliefs and perspective in life with the understanding,

We Create the World and Life We Experience.
Another way to say We create our own reality.

And the reality, experience, life we desire is to live in an effortless flow of following our

powerful hearts and living the freedom we believe we were created for.

Oh so much to say on this, and I will within my writing and sharing about our lives and life lessons.

For now, it's just a little more about me, my heart and the way I desire to impact others.

You are Freer than you know or believe.

LeAnne aka Gyspy

ps: writing this from the top floor casita in Cuyutlan, Colima Mexico. <3