Mama Me Ah......

** found this draft the other day. Not sure when I originally started it, but I'm just gonna put it out there. It's amazing to look back and see how I have been on a journey of self discovery over the last few years. Of all I have changed, learned and grown in, one thing remains the same, I miss my kids and love them dearly **

I'm not quite sure where to start....

so I will just blurt it out.

 Life after being a stay at home Mom can be incredibly challenging.

I feel like I have spent the last few years doing my best to discover myself, remember what my dreams were, learning what I like, doing my best to see my gifts and abilities aside from what lies within the  walls of our home.
It has been tough. It has been stressful. Time doesn't stop to figure things out.....and changes don't stop happening for you to adjust to the ones that have happened.

I have been lovingly encouraged to take a breath, from time to time, and realize that a lot has happened over the last 4 years and I need to be kind to myself. I am the one who stepped in today to give that gentle reminder.

I miss my kids.
I miss my familiar.
I miss the purpose that I use to have.
I am confused at times as to where and how I fit into life after Momhood ( not that it ever really stops, but it definitely takes on a whole new look and feel. )
I get lonely.
I get disillusioned.
I get frustrated at myself.

And, I am positive I am not the only one.

I am embracing more of what I have to offer and being honest again with my dreams and hopes.

I have some regrets. But they aren't going to hold me hostage,  but I would love if they would help others to not build similar ones.

That is why I'm sharing now. As I was cleaning and as I was wiping down the counters at this stage of my life...I thought:

" You know what? I  have so much to offer.  The experiences I had as a Mom and Wife for 28 years counts for a heck of a lot!"
Failures and successes fill my portfolio and I'm pretty much an open book. No holds barred when it comes to sharing my life.....I personally need to give it away. Or...what's the point of it all? That's the hope of the crap in life...that things work out for good and you get the joy and privelege of helping others.

Well...there is so much more I could say...but then I would be writing another book and this will never get posted.