Write now

Don't always "feel" like writing, but I'm just gonna "should" all over myself and do it....cuz,well, I should.

Had a friend stay the night with two of her girls. It was very low key compared to the polar opposite that is her home. Her's is, to be somewhat understated...busy. Mine....is not.

Anyway, it was great having her here even if it was short, twas sweet. I ventured out and told her I wanted to be a writer and speaker but omitted the rich and famous part....figured the writer/speaker was out there enough.
Then she asked a question that stumped me, which is actually really funny AND ironic. " What do you want to write?"
Hm. Ah. Uh.....ya, I don't know. Then I proceed to just sit and feel dumb.

Told Sammy the manly man, later and as always, being less literal than myself, he was able to explain in simple ( this time) detail on what exactly she was asking. And here I thought it was a story line. No...alas, the answer could have been as simple as " I want to write something that makes people cry".
Oooohhhhhhh.....I seeeee...

Riiiight.
That's super, I can answer that question! What I want to write! I know that answer. I want to write something that makes people laugh and think. Something that inspires and encourages. I wanna write stuff that makes people feel understood and sane. I have at numerous times in my life felt none of those and all of those.
Sane is a good thing. And I know that stems from feeling understood. I want "them" to know, they are understood at  the very least, by me!
So, what it comes down to, I want to share myself. I have very little problem sharing myself. I've always been kind of an open book, not a lot left to the imagination, other than " ya gotta wonder what's going on in her head?....oh wait....there it is!"
So, if I can spare someone from feeling insane, misunderstood, alone, helpless, lonely, sad, desperate, unloved...oh my this list could go on for awhile.
But all to say, if anything in my wee life can touch anyone for the positive...well then,  I'm more than happy to bare my soul, heart mind and body...ok, not body, I am quite modest.

Feelin' pretty good about this! I can write and right now....even better? I can answer someone who asks that darn question " what".

Phew